Friday, December 11, 2009
am gonna miss you tiger :(
have a safe trip to Japan.
12:51 PM.
this song is currently stucked in my head.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3_KaiMgxR-g
catched ZOMBIELAND with ian on wed.
fcking hilarious show.
walked to 313 somerset. nth much.
its the same old shit. BORINGG-.-
had supper at cheese prata shop.
a day well spent:]
LAU PA SAT yesterday with the lovelies.
pics will be out soon.
food was soso.
headed to ben and jerry's dempsey.
it was ten mins to closing by the time we reached.
hang around outside for a tad,
pictures, gossips, talks, teasings,
oh how i love this grp of ppl.
they are simply amazing and it made me realize the value of friendship/-totally priceless.
another week passed.
clueless still, this heart yearns for an answer.
an answer which would put an end to its misery.
i was overwhelmed by E's appearance.
mixed feelings.
failure.
your words, are coated with lies.
bearing that in mind,
i still let it flow,
cos im afraid to let u go.
back yet again.
the whole cycle shall repeat.
and for sure, its another falling pit.
someone, get me out of here.
im helplessly trapped,
in darkness.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3_KaiMgxR-g
catched ZOMBIELAND with ian on wed.
fcking hilarious show.
walked to 313 somerset. nth much.
its the same old shit. BORINGG-.-
had supper at cheese prata shop.
a day well spent:]
LAU PA SAT yesterday with the lovelies.
pics will be out soon.
food was soso.
headed to ben and jerry's dempsey.
it was ten mins to closing by the time we reached.
hang around outside for a tad,
pictures, gossips, talks, teasings,
oh how i love this grp of ppl.
they are simply amazing and it made me realize the value of friendship/-totally priceless.
another week passed.
clueless still, this heart yearns for an answer.
an answer which would put an end to its misery.
i was overwhelmed by E's appearance.
mixed feelings.
failure.
your words, are coated with lies.
bearing that in mind,
i still let it flow,
cos im afraid to let u go.
back yet again.
the whole cycle shall repeat.
and for sure, its another falling pit.
someone, get me out of here.
im helplessly trapped,
in darkness.
12:12 PM.
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
had a blast last weekend.
thurs spells F-U-N!
starbucks+karaoke.
the day was filled with much joy and laughter.
ironically, the presence of some didnt ruin the mood at all.
witnessed an accident on our way back.
we were "awakened" by the screeching sound.
a bike actually skied into the accident area.
sat was movie+blue jazz.
couple's retreat is awesomee.
beautiful setting. perfect getaway for couples.
i swear its paradise.
after movie, bought sushis and had our dinner at sultan cafe.
headed to blue jazz afterwhich. it was NUS night event thingy so the
performers were practically NUS students. Ian's friend was spinning
so decided to stay a little longer. left the place at bout 1230.
and hoome sweet home:)
AR came on sunday. It was all good.
and i wish that it'd remain this way,
perhaps it'd do justice for the people around us.
:]
thurs spells F-U-N!
starbucks+karaoke.
the day was filled with much joy and laughter.
ironically, the presence of some didnt ruin the mood at all.
witnessed an accident on our way back.
we were "awakened" by the screeching sound.
a bike actually skied into the accident area.
sat was movie+blue jazz.
couple's retreat is awesomee.
beautiful setting. perfect getaway for couples.
i swear its paradise.
after movie, bought sushis and had our dinner at sultan cafe.
headed to blue jazz afterwhich. it was NUS night event thingy so the
performers were practically NUS students. Ian's friend was spinning
so decided to stay a little longer. left the place at bout 1230.
and hoome sweet home:)
AR came on sunday. It was all good.
and i wish that it'd remain this way,
perhaps it'd do justice for the people around us.
:]
11:39 AM.
Thursday, December 3, 2009
dearest blog, sorry for abandoning you the past few days.
didnt have time to update, oh wait, thats an excuse.
weekends are fine. stayed home, idling, eating sleeping and what not.
and yes, ive gained weight, excessively. gosh.
thanks to mom and grandma for luring me with lontong, rendang, sambal prawns and kuah lodeh for hari raye haji.
that is enough to make me gain 3kg. how nice.
ok not that im blaming them for landing me in such state but i believe thats a factor, yes?
met up with the gals on tuesday. it was a nice catching up session, love it.
headed to sch first to collect our transcripts and then to town for late lunch.
reserved some items at Mango. cant waitttt.
and im excited for the shopping trip to town with mom and sis next week. gosh its been ages! im sure to make it a fruitful one. *evil grins*
gonna catch couple's treat later in the evening and starbucks+karaoke with the guys at night. missed them to bits and pieces. heh.
say hi to these new ppl :)
___________________________________________________________________
you.
Like a dandelion dancing in the breeze
I iwsh time would remain and stood still
In the moments when u are close to me
No doubt its the greatest ive ever been
Your smile
captivates my soul, making me feel brand new and whole.
Your presence
often gives me the tingling sensation running down my spine
boy u have no idea how i missed you so much
Your smell,
it lingers around discreetly
reminding of the times when u are near to me
Your touch,
its unexplicably warm
making me yearn for it even more
The things i mentioned are the best gifts i received
from a special someone who has no clue how he makes me feel.
i believe all things would come to an end. ive decided to call it off with E. thank you for the good times. i will nv forget the small arguments we had while watching movies, having our own set of perception and critics, and how cheeky u would be when u ask me for mentos, the way u embrace and bring me closer to you, the journey of walking back to your place, the late night supper at macs, (double cheeseburger extra pickles), the way u hold my hand, assuring me that everything's gonna be ok, the look on your face as you set ur eyes on mine, the hugs and kisses u gave as u bid me goodbye, the morning msgs and unexpected calls you'd surprise me with and the list goes on.
i open up my diary for another quick glance,
then i realized my heart shattered by chance
soaking the book with the sorrows i know, hoping each page will fade and slowly go
but everytime i close that chapter,
you come around just right after.
truth to be told, i can nv get enough of you, nv.
but im determine to put it to a halt. its hurting. im hurting. once a feeling of elation, now isolated, destroyed. i was deluded by deception. the moment when u started kicking me aside, feeding me with your endless supply of bullshit, threating me like a dirt, i chose to deny the truth and believe all lies. u disdain my weakness and put it to ur advantage. how cruel.
this battle i surrender,
hoping that the wound would be mended.
ur nasty comments it pricks me,
torn and rip apart,
this heart it would heal.
ur reaction was helpless, so full of ignorance.
why should i bother and continue this when i know i deserve better?
goodbye loverboy,
we're through.
didnt have time to update, oh wait, thats an excuse.
weekends are fine. stayed home, idling, eating sleeping and what not.
and yes, ive gained weight, excessively. gosh.
thanks to mom and grandma for luring me with lontong, rendang, sambal prawns and kuah lodeh for hari raye haji.
that is enough to make me gain 3kg. how nice.
ok not that im blaming them for landing me in such state but i believe thats a factor, yes?
met up with the gals on tuesday. it was a nice catching up session, love it.
headed to sch first to collect our transcripts and then to town for late lunch.
reserved some items at Mango. cant waitttt.
and im excited for the shopping trip to town with mom and sis next week. gosh its been ages! im sure to make it a fruitful one. *evil grins*
gonna catch couple's treat later in the evening and starbucks+karaoke with the guys at night. missed them to bits and pieces. heh.
say hi to these new ppl :)
___________________________________________________________________
you.
Like a dandelion dancing in the breeze
I iwsh time would remain and stood still
In the moments when u are close to me
No doubt its the greatest ive ever been
Your smile
captivates my soul, making me feel brand new and whole.
Your presence
often gives me the tingling sensation running down my spine
boy u have no idea how i missed you so much
Your smell,
it lingers around discreetly
reminding of the times when u are near to me
Your touch,
its unexplicably warm
making me yearn for it even more
The things i mentioned are the best gifts i received
from a special someone who has no clue how he makes me feel.
i believe all things would come to an end. ive decided to call it off with E. thank you for the good times. i will nv forget the small arguments we had while watching movies, having our own set of perception and critics, and how cheeky u would be when u ask me for mentos, the way u embrace and bring me closer to you, the journey of walking back to your place, the late night supper at macs, (double cheeseburger extra pickles), the way u hold my hand, assuring me that everything's gonna be ok, the look on your face as you set ur eyes on mine, the hugs and kisses u gave as u bid me goodbye, the morning msgs and unexpected calls you'd surprise me with and the list goes on.
i open up my diary for another quick glance,
then i realized my heart shattered by chance
soaking the book with the sorrows i know, hoping each page will fade and slowly go
but everytime i close that chapter,
you come around just right after.
truth to be told, i can nv get enough of you, nv.
but im determine to put it to a halt. its hurting. im hurting. once a feeling of elation, now isolated, destroyed. i was deluded by deception. the moment when u started kicking me aside, feeding me with your endless supply of bullshit, threating me like a dirt, i chose to deny the truth and believe all lies. u disdain my weakness and put it to ur advantage. how cruel.
this battle i surrender,
hoping that the wound would be mended.
ur nasty comments it pricks me,
torn and rip apart,
this heart it would heal.
ur reaction was helpless, so full of ignorance.
why should i bother and continue this when i know i deserve better?
goodbye loverboy,
we're through.
10:51 AM.
-lovelies.
10:44 AM.
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
lets start off.
its been ages since i last blogged.
undergo repressing changes the past few mths.
I struggled from time to time, searching frantically for my own, exuding joy and sadness.
thoughts running wild and often times getting caught up and find myself in disarray.
It wasnt easy, it has never been.
3 years relationship ended. bittersweet, i reckon but i believe all things will come to an end.
mom was disconsolated over the break up.
nevertheless, i stood firm to my decision because its something i wanted
and im blithed for the fact that i was able to overcome the consequences even though it was unpalatable.
the endless scornful approaches, insulting gibes and provocations
i received resulted in a torrential emotional roller coaster ride.
fought through hard times and seemingly, the situation toned down after awhile.
couldnt have done so without the help of my good friends:)
and yes,
ive graduated from MDIS, with a diploma in mass communication.
decided to pursue with degree next yr.
my social networking has definitely widened. meeting new ppl, mixing with new group of friends,
new lifestyle, new individuals. ahh truly an eye opener.
i wont stop here.
i'll slowly unravel wads hidden and instore for me as i walk along this arduous journey.
confinement phase over.
welcome freedom :)
its been ages since i last blogged.
undergo repressing changes the past few mths.
I struggled from time to time, searching frantically for my own, exuding joy and sadness.
thoughts running wild and often times getting caught up and find myself in disarray.
It wasnt easy, it has never been.
3 years relationship ended. bittersweet, i reckon but i believe all things will come to an end.
mom was disconsolated over the break up.
nevertheless, i stood firm to my decision because its something i wanted
and im blithed for the fact that i was able to overcome the consequences even though it was unpalatable.
the endless scornful approaches, insulting gibes and provocations
i received resulted in a torrential emotional roller coaster ride.
fought through hard times and seemingly, the situation toned down after awhile.
couldnt have done so without the help of my good friends:)
and yes,
ive graduated from MDIS, with a diploma in mass communication.
decided to pursue with degree next yr.
my social networking has definitely widened. meeting new ppl, mixing with new group of friends,
new lifestyle, new individuals. ahh truly an eye opener.
i wont stop here.
i'll slowly unravel wads hidden and instore for me as i walk along this arduous journey.
confinement phase over.
welcome freedom :)
10:14 PM.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
I find myself digging through things
Looking for a something
Something you once gave me
Something I thought was from the heart
But with your lies and betrayal
I am finding something new
With each new item I throw away
I am letting go
Eventually you will be nothing more
Than a memory
The tears are almost done flowing
And I have stopped asking why
My respect for you has diminished
But my spirit once stifled by your jealous ways
Is coming back stronger
So with each letter I burn and each picture I rip
I am reborn
Shedding my skin and letting go
Letting go of all of you
Letting go of all you made me into
Letting go of everything to find something new-
Looking for a something
Something you once gave me
Something I thought was from the heart
But with your lies and betrayal
I am finding something new
With each new item I throw away
I am letting go
Eventually you will be nothing more
Than a memory
The tears are almost done flowing
And I have stopped asking why
My respect for you has diminished
But my spirit once stifled by your jealous ways
Is coming back stronger
So with each letter I burn and each picture I rip
I am reborn
Shedding my skin and letting go
Letting go of all of you
Letting go of all you made me into
Letting go of everything to find something new-
9:17 PM.
