Wednesday, November 25, 2009
lets start off.
its been ages since i last blogged.
undergo repressing changes the past few mths.
I struggled from time to time, searching frantically for my own, exuding joy and sadness.
thoughts running wild and often times getting caught up and find myself in disarray.
It wasnt easy, it has never been.
3 years relationship ended. bittersweet, i reckon but i believe all things will come to an end.
mom was disconsolated over the break up.
nevertheless, i stood firm to my decision because its something i wanted
and im blithed for the fact that i was able to overcome the consequences even though it was unpalatable.
the endless scornful approaches, insulting gibes and provocations
i received resulted in a torrential emotional roller coaster ride.
fought through hard times and seemingly, the situation toned down after awhile.
couldnt have done so without the help of my good friends:)
and yes,
ive graduated from MDIS, with a diploma in mass communication.
decided to pursue with degree next yr.
my social networking has definitely widened. meeting new ppl, mixing with new group of friends,
new lifestyle, new individuals. ahh truly an eye opener.
i wont stop here.
i'll slowly unravel wads hidden and instore for me as i walk along this arduous journey.
confinement phase over.
welcome freedom :)
its been ages since i last blogged.
undergo repressing changes the past few mths.
I struggled from time to time, searching frantically for my own, exuding joy and sadness.
thoughts running wild and often times getting caught up and find myself in disarray.
It wasnt easy, it has never been.
3 years relationship ended. bittersweet, i reckon but i believe all things will come to an end.
mom was disconsolated over the break up.
nevertheless, i stood firm to my decision because its something i wanted
and im blithed for the fact that i was able to overcome the consequences even though it was unpalatable.
the endless scornful approaches, insulting gibes and provocations
i received resulted in a torrential emotional roller coaster ride.
fought through hard times and seemingly, the situation toned down after awhile.
couldnt have done so without the help of my good friends:)
and yes,
ive graduated from MDIS, with a diploma in mass communication.
decided to pursue with degree next yr.
my social networking has definitely widened. meeting new ppl, mixing with new group of friends,
new lifestyle, new individuals. ahh truly an eye opener.
i wont stop here.
i'll slowly unravel wads hidden and instore for me as i walk along this arduous journey.
confinement phase over.
welcome freedom :)
10:14 PM.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
I find myself digging through things
Looking for a something
Something you once gave me
Something I thought was from the heart
But with your lies and betrayal
I am finding something new
With each new item I throw away
I am letting go
Eventually you will be nothing more
Than a memory
The tears are almost done flowing
And I have stopped asking why
My respect for you has diminished
But my spirit once stifled by your jealous ways
Is coming back stronger
So with each letter I burn and each picture I rip
I am reborn
Shedding my skin and letting go
Letting go of all of you
Letting go of all you made me into
Letting go of everything to find something new-
Looking for a something
Something you once gave me
Something I thought was from the heart
But with your lies and betrayal
I am finding something new
With each new item I throw away
I am letting go
Eventually you will be nothing more
Than a memory
The tears are almost done flowing
And I have stopped asking why
My respect for you has diminished
But my spirit once stifled by your jealous ways
Is coming back stronger
So with each letter I burn and each picture I rip
I am reborn
Shedding my skin and letting go
Letting go of all of you
Letting go of all you made me into
Letting go of everything to find something new-
9:17 PM.
back again♥
8:07 PM.
